Pointlessness is not the theme of this blog.Definately its a long gap I take before I blog now.And
this time its the talks of money,life,music,Dashain,loneliness and the whim of myself getting lost somewhere.
Life was never money for me.But at some time I also came to realize that life is money sometimes.Life was never rich or poor.I always kept myself on the middle and never could get the thrill of both.Either top or down.So I became normal.But I can't disagree with the fact that I can live life in sainthood.I'm no more a saint.
Dashin 2008 in particular was a big comeback compared to previous Dashain's.Last Dashain I still remember the tensions within with no holidays and celebrations.I still remember myself blogging cursing the environment i was within.This time Dashain was in full spirit and so did the celebrations.Its was a good sunny day where we had a small get-together with tika talo.It was definately a very Nepali moment.Really a day full of nostalgia and thousands of memories to be carried.
Back home here now, LIFE has changed a lot.Life is no more college-home or friend-fun.It has become a bit serious now.Msn and ktm memories still haunts at midnight.But after all everybody says its life.Some are happy bein recruited for British Army,some for their I-pod nano curved,some for that girl,some for their grown strength and some are sad for nothing.Maybe the sad one will win at last coz at last he's to be sad for nothing.This is what life is actually.Life is not what we daily feel .Life is that lagging thing which we could not feel or we could not make others feel.Life is also not an love poem that always ends with tears or joy.Life is that which is in middle of that.Or maybe I can't just explain.
Music shifted a lot these days.Even there was a thrill that Death magnetic is released and its songs great but there remained a vacancy for something.Old classics remained always close to heart.Be it Khaseka tara by Albatross or be it Smoke on the water cover by Six feet under or savin me by Nickel back they rocked.And no more life songs and love songs coz it kills like cigarrette(don kno the spelling).No more Goo Goo Dolls......
If I could I would start this life over again and live it the way.And maybe everybody things in this way at some point of time.But these are all waste of time thinking to start over again and do this and that.Life is good how it is BTW and we can't make it nothing mattered and all contented.Life is liveable and happy for the king and begger.This is what thinking is.
This blog is dedicated to my those countable frens who still think life was hopeless and the past that made them make their life so.
There's a life within try to search it.And I know you all can be Happy.Its goes to all those who are here,back in country and to those abroadies who went there for good or bad but hope good.
Life is same and life was same.Its the only thinking that made the entire scenario changed now.
Something is definately changed.Or may be our thinking.This blog is the output of those motivations and sadness that I could feel with my very close friends nearby here,in home and abroad.To be more precise this was the output of the messages on Facebook n Orkut ,the instant chat on which I met my closest fren Bses of Bdesh,the outing after bunkin oops lab on Thursday and the talks we had and to be more and more precise the my way of thinking.Don't know why but be it India or Nepal or Bangladesh or States or UK or Australia or Germany or Denmark(and whereever i forgot to mention my frens are) sadness still haunts everybody.Life has always been a bitch.
This is how life has become till now.
Note:
(My current playlists include:-
300 cover by Antim grahan
In Love wid Suicide by Antim Grahan
Khase ka tara by Albatross
The day that never comes & Unforgiven III by Metallica
Aces High cover by Children Of Bodom
Smoke on the Water cover by Six Feet Under
Hey Lady by Led Zeppelin
Outside by Staind and Fred dust
Untitled(How could this happen to me) by Simple Plan
Show me How to LIVE by Audioslave)
You can imagine a scenario of my life now.
