Melancholy of desire !

The background was with the tunes of Monkey Temple - Bachau Sanghai , and inside the mind were thoughts of some very entangling emotions . The time when you don't know what exactly should be the appropriate reaction or thought . Basically a rambling that leads you to nowhere . The song moves on , ... , says "Aja mero mrityu katai malai nai parkhadai cha .. " and suddenly a chat pops out from a person that looks a bit blur in memory . It first reads just a few minute of yours and it continues . I hear woes there , I hear depression , I hear the hate of life there . and i lie helpless here at the other communicating end . What would i even deliver , When life itself has done such a partiality on the other part , a sheer injustice . Why won't life come with with the list of ingredients so that we can prior decide either we want to get expired or live through out .
The chat continues and with the night gettin colder and darker the conversatjon thickens . It travels through all that tough times when even typing a word was becomes like taking a political decision . The person at the other end surrenders . 
Am noone to give him justice but i can't console too . With this i realise what a pain is life . It never was beautiful . And suddenly i realise all the times when we thought our life is so beautiful , it was a time getting along for the time to ckme which is going yo bring much more trouble . Life aint easy .
Even thought the messenger reads m online , i'm already half dead i side . I'm not able to answer and it leaves me thinking .