Fakeness !

It has really been long since i last blogged.You know life's getting hasty with age.I guess its the lesson of time that it teaches to every freakin youngster.
Some month ago at round may i was so shocked by the gift i got for my birthday.It was a packed fakeness that needed no explanation. It came as a storm and took away my life by force . Since then i've learnt life's not that easy. The problem with us is we just think a lot bout our belongings than ourselves.At that time I wanted to blog a lot but again I thought I would splatter my anger so bad that I would hate myself later.In this world being true is not just being loyal.I guess you have to have that supernatural skill to know what's going on on others mind.Life's not a bitch , its just that we tend to make it whore ourselves *a big lesson learned*
What would you do when you are stranded half way on a war where retreat is not an option ?
Ya thats where I'v reached. I won't even be delighted to fight back nor to give up with words.
These were too life thoughts haha .
I'm starting a travalogue soon.Or a tech blog.
Had grown up so showing this blog to all would be like opening a class 10 diary and checking out that class crush.
All we have is nothing at end.
Wrote while plugging earphones and playing Everybody must get stoned by Black Crows !
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Rastriyeta!

Just got to watch some of the short movies by my frens who are abroad !
They had a very good message within the movie ! The only hope of the nation the youths to be back to their motherland!It kept me in a deep thought that what really is going to future hold for nepal where for youth politics is always a dirty game untouched , where living means without comforts of electricity and roads are emblem of protests , fuel is a rare case and normality in living is abnormality !
Kathmandu , a city in quest , a city in conjunction with the modern living living where people think a lot deliver less and get very very less ! Infact a land of silent And migrated Che Gueveras ! Really kathmandu needs you all !
You all need to come back for the country !
You know you won't get iphones for $299 , 24hrs uninteruppted electricity, a honda civic for $4000 and a straight forward rantless life , but still you were a nepali !
Now its your choice to be you are or not !
But think twice and decide!Nepal needs you!If we start at least our sons and daughters are definately going to get these comforts ! Leve the self love , self comfort !
All i can do is plead ! Hope we ll meet in Nepal !
This goes out to all my friends , brothers , sisters who forcibly or due to cause or due to interest are out of the country !

A Note Of Failure !

When success lures you , you don't have any option other than to just stick to the sweet pain of success !
But wish you had understood that "All Shall Fall ! " Even the saints , even the in-no-saints ! You succeed because somebody else has failed and yes you are responsible for it one way or the other ! Life is complicated in its own way , don't just blurr it with the fake emotions of spirituality ! Its a materialistic world and do be reminded again "All Shall Fall " !
Peace
Happy Buddha-Jayanthi !

Obituary to desires !

Sometime you just can move with the pace of time or you are forced to do so!
nowdays i blog less bout physical things then psychological things its coz the chamge that i m going thru.I'm learning things are not the way we think it
should be or we imagine it would go on.When it comes to reality even a small thing in mind entangles you to a thought that can lead you either to give up or to just let the things escape coz you think you have lost a lot and now you dont have anything worth losing !So that was the introduction to what the mind is thinking right now!Ya its tired blurred and dead of a same thinking of a blant life ,career , money and family!This is not life what i ought and sought to live.Dunno when it gonna be like when everything will seem to be good to live a life !It will never i guess coz life is an ecology of imperfections and we as a player of it try to make it perfect.
This blog marks the obituary of ma old life.I have to grow up and its not mandatory.Hope life remains beautiful for a cause from now onwards!
Good bye OLD ME!

Melancholy of desire !

The background was with the tunes of Monkey Temple - Bachau Sanghai , and inside the mind were thoughts of some very entangling emotions . The time when you don't know what exactly should be the appropriate reaction or thought . Basically a rambling that leads you to nowhere . The song moves on , ... , says "Aja mero mrityu katai malai nai parkhadai cha .. " and suddenly a chat pops out from a person that looks a bit blur in memory . It first reads just a few minute of yours and it continues . I hear woes there , I hear depression , I hear the hate of life there . and i lie helpless here at the other communicating end . What would i even deliver , When life itself has done such a partiality on the other part , a sheer injustice . Why won't life come with with the list of ingredients so that we can prior decide either we want to get expired or live through out .
The chat continues and with the night gettin colder and darker the conversatjon thickens . It travels through all that tough times when even typing a word was becomes like taking a political decision . The person at the other end surrenders . 
Am noone to give him justice but i can't console too . With this i realise what a pain is life . It never was beautiful . And suddenly i realise all the times when we thought our life is so beautiful , it was a time getting along for the time to ckme which is going yo bring much more trouble . Life aint easy .
Even thought the messenger reads m online , i'm already half dead i side . I'm not able to answer and it leaves me thinking .