Consolation !

Hasn't been writing for long! Things got entangled and i got lost in the so called maze called life , which i never thought i would!
It was a like a month ago when i realized things are not that easy as we thought when time passes!Can't i still again be that xaviers going , basantapur roaming kid , my inner voice itself said "Fuck NO"
Ya since then i have been realising this is life.I am post graduating by the mid next year however i have almost compelted my theory classes.We never go beyond the thinking of our lives being completely affected by a thing called career.
But i guess i completely do now and i call it adolescense at 24 haha!
Might be i have learnt now how to appreciate "god of small things" .We were never that way !
Young energy to take over the world shatters there however this is definately not a consolation blog , i somehow manage to get these thought during my final tests ! This is my second last test i'm giving bfore my post graduation then this is it . Life would go some where its destined but i hope my life should not only be driven by destiny . Some call this fool , i call it believing in myself . Why not a consolation to self when you have all the fucking time on earth to tell others ya things will be alright , ya you ll do it , ya time will come ! We get inspired by many things but the saddest thing is when these inspiration just lack confidance !
Life should not suck ! Hope so !
Amigos !

Bengaloored !

It was a fine day till round 7 pm i got an email from my home ! Come on skype soon ! My nephew (bhanja) emailed me!people are fotunately worried bout me ! I suddenly went online ! They strted with a thing why wont i pick up call but answer all tweets and email ! I am that way but the insider is i hve no cell tower at ma room and people mistake it for my many bad habits ! When at sometime before i was completely happy sein those YouTube Nepali Short movies but m kinda scared now ! Its now 12.05 am 17th august here in bangalore india and all i can hear now is the calls and sms's of the paniked voice of the north easterners who are bein a prey of a rumoured communal violence !
Nobody knows whats the cause , who started it or when its happening ! But
People are way too panicked just like that ! Some body tells me like they hv heard 2 nepalis bein killed nearby !
Somebody tells me the same version with the nationality changed they say they were assamise ! Some other even changed location and no ! But all have heard all these ! Why nobody Saw ????
When we were even having fun pranking in the skype (my small nepali community - ruben dai , anup dai , subash dai and babita and sabeena bhauju's ) i was being pessimist!Now i feel really like what if there will be communal violence ! It hasnt been long since i saw the documentary about the communal violence in gujarat ! It really is a nasty game ! There hasnt so far been any violence reported in Bangalore!
If this is false then there will always be a group called oppurtunitist who can take advantage of the situation to make the situation to worst ! Though after constantly hearing about this for like 20/30 times now i from inside is also a bit scared for this thing but Bangalore has never been so bad that it would banish us Nepalese or north Easters !
I really hope this to end fast and rules and regulation be imposed in Bangalore ! Security measures in case it happens should be started ! I hope to get back to that Bangalore where we roared the roads even 12 am at night and feel how breezy it is ! I hope to complete my masters soon without any chaos running !
There are lot many tensions in life !
Do concentrate on those rather than spreading the fake message of supressing the outsiders - message to the initiators !