HATE eternal!!

I herd those many times!damn!renunciation nd stufs I tried long back !
now I dunno what's creeping in!insanity in vanity?nothing helps!you ll
get nothing at last!not even eternal peace!just only straight death
for nothing!A martyr ov no country!so wats it's worth????
If it has a start it also had an end!if you're starting to be happy
then it has an end too!it's eternal suffering everywhere that matters
not happiness!It depends upon people to people how much they can
withstand the suffering!some lie unconscious in the battle helpless
some jus fight back as a warrior even though they know there's no
credit for it!All are helpless and is sick of all these helplessness !
Whatever life is to be lived or might be it is to be suffered?
The answer lies nowhere!So might be Lord Buddha also learnt at last
that there's no world without suffering and pain!There's even supreme
pain in happiness!That is called tears ov happiness!Do or die is not
the saying anymore it's die or die!However death is certain!These many
years also life showed so many aspects ov people that it's hard to evn
believe in dreams to be immortal!Who wants immortality with this
worldly suffering?May be you're lured bro I'm not at all!
I've grown in a lot of hatred,humiliations,devastations and falling
please I can't anymore!Fallen.....or Dragged......??????
Might be it's a trap that I've fallen into ov physical things and
worldly features like lust and love !Definately i was not this kind
before!Heard the world ruins everybody and might be me!Don't want this
me with all these worldly pleasures!Its Good above in nothingness!No
lust !!And no love!Just pure power of being yourself to this world
rather than to somebody!
So it's hate eternal!You gotta understand it!